ill-nevergiveuponyou: darbesaurus: tinychatter: imagine reading a book of all the lies you’ve told imagine reading a book of all the lies you’ve been told
idk why i even bother getting crushes on people because it’s not like i’m gonna end up dating them anyway so like it’s such a waste of feelings
1/3 of me: I wanna be fit and sexy and have a flat stomach and be lean and have lots of muscle.
1/3 of me: I wanna be skinny and tiny and dainty and delicate and bony and frail and look cute in everything.
1/3 of me: I wanna not give a shit about what I look like and be happy instead.
me at school: Laughs and smiles.
me with friends: Gets hyper and weird.
me around parents: stay quiet.
me finally gets alone: Cries, and screams, self harms. Thinks of suicide.
Go anon and say whatever you'd like to me.
you-only-have-your-own-back: I’m sorry I’m not happy enough to talk to you and I’m sorry I never know what to say and I’m sorry what I say comes out wrong and that I’m really boring and I’m sorry I’m never hyper for you to want to be around me. I’m just really fucking sorry I’m not good enough for anyone.